SCI, 100 Corrections Drive
Stanley, WI 53768
As of January 30, 2016 I have served a total of 441
years of incarceration since 1969. From age 26 to age 72.
When I went to prison in 1969 my parole officer was not even born yet.
My life has known only four predominant and profound
factors:
1. A Broken Family 2. A sheltered
Life in an orphanage: 3. A Unpopular War 4 Prisons:
How complex is my 44 year prison journey ? To
fully grasp this epic journey you must wade through the volume of compelling material that which is incredible and
somewhat chaotic.I went from my
adolescence directly into old age and missed all of the life in between.
I'm the third child in a core family of 3 girls
and 3 boys. Our father died in a car accident in 1951 and our mother abandoned her six children and we were sent
to the Child City which is a
[self-sufficient] orphanage of 1,400 acres at Mooseheart, Illinois. Boys and girls were separated on divided campuses and a guard would keep constant surveillance
to make sure that no one would cross the imaginary boundary-line. Sisters and
brothers would only get together once
a year for a Thanksgiving meal. There was no dating, no kissing, sex was taboo
and there wasn't any sex education. I
was a devoted catholic and an alter-boy. This structured environment was in
many ways similar to how a prison is structured. Me and my five siblings came
to live at Mooseheart with a
different developmental process. This environment presented a very "materialistic" life with all the luxury
and extravagance funded by the many Moose Clubs.
At age 8, I was befriended by Richard Bourdage
who worked at the post office, hobby shop and managed the summer camp at
Mt. Morris, Illinois. I spent most all of my leisure time at the hobby shop
where I built box traps, bird houses, boats, and a Soap Box Derby, and at age 15 I became the All-American Soap Box Derby
Champion, which was the highlight of my youth. Rich would give me the keys to the hobby shop and to his apartment down
below while he was out delivering mail. Rich treated me as a privileged
child and he was a father figure to me.
The above is significant information because Rich
was a pedophiliac and I was sexually abused
by Rich over my Mooseheart years which was paramount in shaping my very
existence over the majority of my
adult life. ROTC was a mandatory part of the school curriculum starting in
the seventh-grade with a
full dress parade [in thick gray West Point cadets uniforms].So I
was indoctrinated
into the military at an early age. My strong conviction was this:That 1
could not show no greater love for my country than to lay down my life
for Cod, Duty and my country. So it was only proper that I join the Army after Mooseheart,
at age 18.
I thought my life was going well and I had to
prepare for war. Not long after my training, and 16 weeks of aviation school, I was shipped off to Viet Nam.. 1
did not realize the horror that lay
in store for me. Prior to my enlistment I never missed a Sunday mass. Every
person who left Mooseheart was a
virgin and a good person. Viet
is where I lost my innocence. Indeed Viet
Nam has perhaps always been my
most compelling initiation into adulthood. This may be because war replicates all the physical, emotional,intelletual,and
spiritüa1 challenges of life in their most intense and threatening
forms. Beginning with basic training.
My parochial foster home left me at age 18
entirely deficient in heterosexual social or sexual skills and knowledge. Training in sexual behavior and sexual
attitudes and expectations were
entirely provided by $.50 short-time and $1.00 all-night whores in V iet Nam. Any kind of sex was available on demand. Preliminary social behavior
was not required nor expected. These women
were very aggressive and I never experienced any feeling of rejection. Due to
my lack of sex education I contacted ten cases of V.D. during my 13
month tour of duty and I almost died of one
case of "blue balls." [See military medicals records attached herein].
After experiencing the sexual abuse at the
orphanage one of my cognitive distortions that developed was that by having lots of sex with women, this validated my
heterosexuality. Then after Viet Nam I needed sex to feel the touch of love and passion
that was deeply imprinted and tucked
into the creases and gray matter of the brain that I didn't reach until I
finally found Specialized treatment for the very ;first time in the Kansas DOC that
began in 1991.
This veteran's soul
utters the anguish of wounds for which there is no medication.
My return
to the States from Viet Nam and Honorable Discharge from the Army was extremely stressfu1. When I approached women usually while drinking]
they would reject my advances and I wasn't
able to accept the difference between my experiences with women in Viet Nam and those in
America, and I felt quite puzzled and disillusioned by this. Due to my
increased frustration,I
began to expose myself to women. In 1969 in broad-daylight, on a sidewalk, I forced a women to masturbate me with the threat of a knife at her
throat. After numerous such deviate behavior I
was arrested and charged with Threat To Injury. I was sent to a Mental Hospital
for a 60 day observation period. The Court
committed roe to 0-5 years under the Sex Crimes Law and Statute 959.15 for "Specialized
treatment." WSP was the designated Treatment Center.
It is made
abundantly clear throughout my Clinical Service File,by both laymen and experts
that no such Specialized treatment existed in the prison system. I did everything within my capacity to seek and fix my dsyfunctional life. i.g. I
was willing to undergo chemical castration (depo=Provera] as a means to alleviate my sexual addictive behavior. In
silent protest I refused
to see my parole board because I didn't want to be be released at all because my first and foremost
concern was to get psycholtherapy designed in such a way that I can understand
my previous behaviors, work through conflicts, and learn to live a productive and full life. Thus, I demanded to be
returned to Court and be extended an additional 5 year term> The judge
granted my 5- year term> however I was returned to the same system(WSP) and
was blind to the causes, cure, and prevention of sex abuse and so no
“specialized treatment” was forthcoming.
After
having served 10 years on my original 5 year commitment, I was prematurely
released with the belief that such treatment
actually didn't exist and I would have to control my sex deviate behavior on will-power-alone. As my future
depicts this logic was ludicrous. In 1986 I relapsed "again" and with two counts of rape
and armed robbery, and I was sentenced to consecutive
terms of 22, 22, and 15 years for a total of 59 years. I've served 30 years of
this.
In 1989 I
attempted to escape from WSP and my escape plan was so cunning and elaborate that perhaps it would have been a perfect plot, on the
Mission Impossible TV show. Prison officials in Mam that deadison determined that they didn't
have the security to hold me in this state so they
Interstate Compacted me to the state of Kansas for 25 years. From 12-4-89 to
10-8-2014:
However,
even in tragedy there can be redemption and a flicker of hope, because once I
got into the Kansas DOC they took up that
responsibility where the Wisconsin system failed me in treatment and I enrolled in every program made
available to me [some of them two and three times] earning me 93 Certificates between 1991-2013: I
maintain "low-medium custody" while I
only received six (6) minor Conduct Reports over these past twenty-five (25)
years.
Today I feel
so blessed and Applaud the Kansas system for adopting a sex offenders treatment
program that depicts the real story of
the sex offender and benefits of therapeutic relationships. So overwhelmed was
I to finally find adequate treatment that I invested 25 months in an arduous task to get referral to make a second pass through
SOT that became STP and was extended from a 10 month program to an
18 month program of extensive programming in the highest degree of true
excellence by professional staff at Lansing, Kansas, D0C.
(Self-Evaluation)
As a child when my basic needs for reliable love, comforting, and safety was mangled by sexual abuse, it brouqht about a state of
chronic anxiety, fear, shame, anger emotional
isolation despair in my inner child that followed into my adulthood. To heal I could NOT neglect this part of my life, coupled by my Vietnam sexual escapades and traumatic experiences. My life after V-L2_tncLnz was the result of many factors that were hidden until my
treatment began in 1991. I owned many
cognitive distortions and thinking errors with irrational
thoughts that caused emotional stress and maladopted behavior.
In retrospect, and what is so problematic today is
the fact that I was released over three decades ago, at a period of time when I was doomed to failure; and now
today; and in spite of adversity, I
exceeded all expectations and flourished in treatment Where few prisoners have reached such an analytical level about themselves.
Yet I am being denied the quality of life that these extraordinary achievements are supposed to bring into my
present day and for the rest of my
life. Good things are supposed to happen, not bad things like I
am experiencing
"WoW"
after my return to Wisconsin on 10-8-2014 Was my anticipation and expectations
för a better quality of life ever impeded When I became
"warehoused" here at the Stanly prison.
.. I Pray the God will enlighten the
Minds of Those who control my fate
1)Contents to come:
https://ffupstuff.files.wordpress.com/2016/06/r-schmitt-contents-description.pdf
1)Contents to come:
https://ffupstuff.files.wordpress.com/2016/06/r-schmitt-contents-description.pdf
2)Done so far:packet 3 (19 pages)description in box below:
open packet here:Catch 22:https://ffupstuff.files.wordpress.com/2016/06/r-schmitt-catch-22-packetall.pdf
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Brief History: CATCH 22 SITUATION: Recovery A Gift !!! Why isn't the issue of
treatment
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looked upon as being as important as the issue of security ???
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Page 8 .......NO TREATMENT VERSUS COST OF TREATMENT -
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2006 .........\A low-life inmate scammed me out of $2000. and to remove me from his crim‑
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inal activity he lied
when he told security I plan to escape and this put
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me in long term
segregation. Make no mistake about it, the physical pain
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and mental anguish I experienced was cruel and unusual
punishment:
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Page 12 .....July 2001: My first parole hearing after 15 years on my governing-sentence:
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2) Packet 11description of packet below
link to reading doc:to whom it may concern:https://ffupstuff.files.wordpress.com/2016/06/r-schmitt-catch-22-packetall.pdf
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